We are back, yeah, we are. So are you, afraid of those Arachnids.

Crawling everywhere, we see everything even without eyes. We watch you hide.

We hear everything even without ears. We hear you scream.

We smell your fear even without a nose. We smell your fear.

We smile to you even without a mouth. We enjoy this, and you will not.

¿Can you feel it? ¿You want your redemption?

You ask yourself: And us.

¿Who are the creatures crawling on the corners of my mind?

We are that guilt in your mind, which you cannot accept. Noppera

You hate yourself for doing that, taking another person's life.

Figurativelly... Literally...

And now, you are alone with it. You have no gift. No immunity. No Fate.

Prepare yourself, for you knew He would come back for you. And all those you hold dear, even though they don't belong to you.

And you will feel sick. And we will be there when He takes you.

I feel sick. We are too.

Difficult Night

Hey guys...

Last night has been sort of wierd. I couldn't sleep properly, and I've starting to feel sick, very sick. Well, at least I'm alright now, but still kinda sleepy.

My sister also has been starting to have some nightmares... I hope she doesn't end as me from last year... which talking about, next month it'll be one year since this blog started!

Horray!

Well, hope to write to you guys later.

See ya.

Birthday

So yeah, today is my 19th birthday... since my parents don't seem to have money for any kind of party and I'm technically broke right now because... err... reasons, I'll have to wait until next weekend to eat some cake. D:

All in all, a good B-day, except for no-cake.

Wish me a good year. =D

See ya!

Date

Yet, got a date yesterday at night. It went pretty well, nothing too spectacular... we went to eat something, talked a little bit.

*sigh*

Yeah, yeah, nothing to write home about, but it's a start, at least for me.

While I'm at that, I may tell you that my sister's migraines have subsided. And so, no more complaining from her part.

Things are starting to look pretty good here. =D

Well, that's all.

See ya. ^^

Calm

The nightmares have stopped, at least for a few daws. Now I don't quite remember my dreams, but I think it's for the best, as I don't feel sick when I wake up.

I feel less anxious and stressed. But still, something doesn't quite feel right yet.

*sigh*

¡So, yesterday was the new Xbox reveal! ¡I will that to save up money for this Christmas!

And, today I may or may not have a date, she's someone I met at the game store... talking about being lucky...

Well, see ya, wish me luck. =D

Tired...

It's been a rough week, my sister has been very irritable and has the same kind of migraines as I.

I've been kinda irritable too, since I've had some problems with the PC, it keeps reseting itself every now and them... get's pixealated and such.

Kinda remembers me about what my DS did last year.

Well, I hope nothing else happens here.

See ya

Why is it still watching?

It hasn't had enough.

Permanently taking that menacing form.

Eight Legs. No Eyes. No face.

BUT STILL SMILING WITHOUT THEM. IT LAUGHS.


¡Please, make it stop, God, just make it stop! It's in every direction.

It knows what I had to do that night. A memory I didn't want to remember. It eats me from the inside.

¿Why is he in my head now?  ¿What makes this visit so different?

I'm sorry, I'm sorry,
I'm sorry, I'm sorry,
I'm sorry, I'm sorry.

I feel sick.

Meds

So, I might start taking today a new medication for my migraines, I don't remember the name, but the doctors say that I'll feel very drowzy when I take it, so I just need to take 1 every night, or something like that.

Well, that's good, since the nightmares started, I've having troubles getting a good night of sleep, so maybe this will help me.

On other news, my grandma is staying at my uncle's home, and I visit her dialy. She practically taked care of me and my sister when my parents weren't at home because of their work (Which was kinda often).

Maybe, I don't know, I'll tell her no come with me and my parents out for dinner or something. :)

See ya.

Migraine

The migraines came back yesterday...

I haven'd had a migraine like in... months, at least it was a soft case and I could sleep without the pain.

The spider nightmares still haunt me, it's the same one over and over...

I feel sick.

Sis's Birthday

Today's my sister's birthday, so she's coming over here with my grandma. I don't know what to give her yet... that's what I get for waiting till the last moment...

I'm doing fine, by the way. I still have the spider nightmares. I'm very shaken up, but I can cope with them.

See ya.

Bad Night

I had nightmares about spiders yesterday. It was awful.

I'm in no mood to do anything today, but well, maybe going to the game store near here will cheer me up.

See ya.

No... I can't sleep... but I'm tired.
Only thing can do is close my eyes, but I don't feel safe.
Put that down, It says, but I don't wanna take my face out of the sheets of my bed.
Put that down, It demands.
Everything's normal? You came back, and now it never will. I feel pale.
Resting in the shadows... 8 legs, 8 fucking legs. But they are just to show off. To scare me.
And it knows my fears. It knows it works. And it took that form just for me.
- IT SMILES, EVEN THROUGH THE SHADOWS I CAN SEE IT, EVEN WITH NO FEATURES I CAN FEEL IT
But this proves it, I shouldn't have come back here. I had the chance to escape, but now...
Only thing I can do is close my eyes... but it is right in my face. Can't run anymore, can't I
?

One of those nights

I can't stop thinking about those spiders... I'm really frightened of them.

I'm gonna go to sleep early today. Something feels disgusting.

Maybe just the rain, I don't like rain, It makes my glasses hazy, and I seroiusly hate when I can't see things. It reminds me of my migraines.

See ya.

Everything's Normal

I'm posting this from my cousin's PC, this place hasn't changed a single bit... it seems they don't really mind now about that incident from months ago, that makes me happy. Now... I need to find a part-time job here, I need some money to buy that 3DS.

On an unrelated note, a neighbor had to call the plague control guys or whatever they are called, apparently, they had LOTS of spiders in there, maybe that's where the one in my face came from.

Arachnophobia levels increasing drastically.

Well, see ya all.

I'm here

Well, I'm officially here, back at the US. It has been a good night of sleep, no symptoms of anything that happened before. Everything was going well... until the first thing I woke up to was a FREAKING SPIDER IN MY FACE.

Ugh... I'm arachnophobic, so that makes this surprise much less pleasant, I screamed all over the place... my parents though I was having another psychotic attack or whatever, but well, everything turned ok when my dad stepped on it.

Yeah, I know I sound pathetic, but trust me when I say that my arachnophobia is very difficult to contain. I was constantly bullied at school because of that.

Well, enought talk about me, I hope this trip goes well.

See ya, whoever reads this.

Time to Go

My flight will be here at around 10 AM local time. So I'll be going on about 3 hours. Hope this all goes well.

And since no-one said anything, I'll go with saving my money for a 3DS for now.

See ya.

Opinions

Well, to everyone who's still reading this, I would like an opinion...

I've got some spare money from a part-time job here, and I've been thinking on spending it on repairing my Xbox... or saving it to buy a 3DS later... I really want to play Pokemon X and Y... and since I've never played a Legend of Zelda title aside from the GBA ones (Namely, A Link to the Past), I think I would start with this version of Ocarina of Time.


So, ¿what do you think?

Back Home

Hello everybody! I've been back in Colombia for a few months now... But recently... you know... things have gotten boring...

I'm studying at an university here now and have gotten new medication for my migraines.

As for why my absence for the last months... well, it's seems I had some sort of psycothic attack or something, acting like some kind of paranoiac guy...

I was found on a nearby building near the park. Apparently I tried to cut my own throat with my nails.

I don't remember much before that. But reading the entries I've come to realize how crazy I was.

My parents don't remember any guy named Hilbert. My sister was apparently here en Colombia all along with my grandmother.

Doctors say that everything in my head is normal, but I've got to stay calm , and I've had to go regularly to a psychiatrist or whatever is called.

I'm writing this in english as I plan to go back there in a few days to visit my parents and my uncle and apologize for any problems I've caused.

My parents still work there because of the local jobs they got at the hospital, so I've been living with my grandma for this months...

No money for new games, my Xbox got broken... but at least my Pokemons have been periodically getting stronger. Lots of Lvl 100 now.

I hope to hear from some of my previous readers (If there are still any after all this time).

See ya.