We are back, yeah, we are. So are you, afraid of those Arachnids.

Crawling everywhere, we see everything even without eyes. We watch you hide.

We hear everything even without ears. We hear you scream.

We smell your fear even without a nose. We smell your fear.

We smile to you even without a mouth. We enjoy this, and you will not.

¿Can you feel it? ¿You want your redemption?

You ask yourself: And us.

¿Who are the creatures crawling on the corners of my mind?

We are that guilt in your mind, which you cannot accept. Noppera

You hate yourself for doing that, taking another person's life.

Figurativelly... Literally...

And now, you are alone with it. You have no gift. No immunity. No Fate.

Prepare yourself, for you knew He would come back for you. And all those you hold dear, even though they don't belong to you.

And you will feel sick. And we will be there when He takes you.

I feel sick. We are too.

Difficult Night

Hey guys...

Last night has been sort of wierd. I couldn't sleep properly, and I've starting to feel sick, very sick. Well, at least I'm alright now, but still kinda sleepy.

My sister also has been starting to have some nightmares... I hope she doesn't end as me from last year... which talking about, next month it'll be one year since this blog started!

Horray!

Well, hope to write to you guys later.

See ya.

Birthday

So yeah, today is my 19th birthday... since my parents don't seem to have money for any kind of party and I'm technically broke right now because... err... reasons, I'll have to wait until next weekend to eat some cake. D:

All in all, a good B-day, except for no-cake.

Wish me a good year. =D

See ya!

Date

Yet, got a date yesterday at night. It went pretty well, nothing too spectacular... we went to eat something, talked a little bit.

*sigh*

Yeah, yeah, nothing to write home about, but it's a start, at least for me.

While I'm at that, I may tell you that my sister's migraines have subsided. And so, no more complaining from her part.

Things are starting to look pretty good here. =D

Well, that's all.

See ya. ^^

Calm

The nightmares have stopped, at least for a few daws. Now I don't quite remember my dreams, but I think it's for the best, as I don't feel sick when I wake up.

I feel less anxious and stressed. But still, something doesn't quite feel right yet.

*sigh*

¡So, yesterday was the new Xbox reveal! ¡I will that to save up money for this Christmas!

And, today I may or may not have a date, she's someone I met at the game store... talking about being lucky...

Well, see ya, wish me luck. =D

Tired...

It's been a rough week, my sister has been very irritable and has the same kind of migraines as I.

I've been kinda irritable too, since I've had some problems with the PC, it keeps reseting itself every now and them... get's pixealated and such.

Kinda remembers me about what my DS did last year.

Well, I hope nothing else happens here.

See ya

Why is it still watching?

It hasn't had enough.

Permanently taking that menacing form.

Eight Legs. No Eyes. No face.

BUT STILL SMILING WITHOUT THEM. IT LAUGHS.


¡Please, make it stop, God, just make it stop! It's in every direction.

It knows what I had to do that night. A memory I didn't want to remember. It eats me from the inside.

¿Why is he in my head now?  ¿What makes this visit so different?

I'm sorry, I'm sorry,
I'm sorry, I'm sorry,
I'm sorry, I'm sorry.

I feel sick.

Meds

So, I might start taking today a new medication for my migraines, I don't remember the name, but the doctors say that I'll feel very drowzy when I take it, so I just need to take 1 every night, or something like that.

Well, that's good, since the nightmares started, I've having troubles getting a good night of sleep, so maybe this will help me.

On other news, my grandma is staying at my uncle's home, and I visit her dialy. She practically taked care of me and my sister when my parents weren't at home because of their work (Which was kinda often).

Maybe, I don't know, I'll tell her no come with me and my parents out for dinner or something. :)

See ya.

Migraine

The migraines came back yesterday...

I haven'd had a migraine like in... months, at least it was a soft case and I could sleep without the pain.

The spider nightmares still haunt me, it's the same one over and over...

I feel sick.

Sis's Birthday

Today's my sister's birthday, so she's coming over here with my grandma. I don't know what to give her yet... that's what I get for waiting till the last moment...

I'm doing fine, by the way. I still have the spider nightmares. I'm very shaken up, but I can cope with them.

See ya.

Bad Night

I had nightmares about spiders yesterday. It was awful.

I'm in no mood to do anything today, but well, maybe going to the game store near here will cheer me up.

See ya.

No... I can't sleep... but I'm tired.
Only thing can do is close my eyes, but I don't feel safe.
Put that down, It says, but I don't wanna take my face out of the sheets of my bed.
Put that down, It demands.
Everything's normal? You came back, and now it never will. I feel pale.
Resting in the shadows... 8 legs, 8 fucking legs. But they are just to show off. To scare me.
And it knows my fears. It knows it works. And it took that form just for me.
- IT SMILES, EVEN THROUGH THE SHADOWS I CAN SEE IT, EVEN WITH NO FEATURES I CAN FEEL IT
But this proves it, I shouldn't have come back here. I had the chance to escape, but now...
Only thing I can do is close my eyes... but it is right in my face. Can't run anymore, can't I
?